Saturday, April 30, 2005
30/4/05
i dunno wat to say now.. also dunno how to describe wat i'm feeling now... perhaps i haf already become an extra in some ppl's life.. but i sure know they are nt extra in my life.. wat comes around goes around, i'm prepared to accept the criticism about me, if its jux about me, to me, i wont gif it a damn... but if itz bout my friend, den i tink i should apologise for causing all tt.. really feeling guilty now.. and disappointed and heart broken.. i dun wan to assume or jump to comclusions.. hope i'm nt wrong... i luv all of u my friends... really... i dun wanna disappoint u... i'm sorry if i ever do, though smth sorry is jux the worst word to use...
today, went to school in the morning for IDP... abit sad coz sat still haf to come school and i haven done my homework... i slept thro ytd, y am i such a pig? i should haf done my work.. i sux at maths and phy, so i should spend MORE time on practising them! and nt spending my time going out, chit chatting or sleeping.. all tt nt impt at all.. i am really irritated and angry now.. i cant get my anger down... i shouldnt be angry de, coz i still need do my homework later de.. y are all the stoopid friends thingy and going out making me fustrated? damn it..
Y8:27 PM
Thursday, April 28, 2005
28/4/05
today was normal for me... but really bad for me during chem... we had to do titration again la, VA03 today... tis is the process suppose to be done... need to first burette 45.50 cm cube of FA1 ma, den add deionise water in volumetric flask and top it up to 250cm cube ma... tt will be FA3.. den need to pipette 25 cm cube out and use FA2 and do titration... tis steps seems simple rite? but things had to go wrong...
we had to use 2 burette for tis.. and when i was rinsing the first burette, there was a hole in the tubing... i went to tell ms ng and she told me to go find the lab tech... den when i got the tube, i put the burette clip and poured the solution on the chair... guess wat? the burette clip was faulty and the solution leaked out of the burette tube on to the chair and the floor... i was so angry wif the experiment, den i call ms ng again and she put a new clip for me.. i tot the worst was over... was already slowed down due to appartus problem...the i burette out the correct amount of WRONG solution.. damn.. so i redo the whole thing, wash the burette again and added the correct solution and pipetted out 25cm cube of FA3.. den when i was rinsing the second burette, the tubing got stuck! oh man!!! den i went to the lab tech again...
by tt time most of them finish titrating le lo.. den me still doing.. argh... den doing the answers tt time, i was confused of the method... sianz diao... before experiment ms ng went through VA02 and assiagnment one... i was happy when i saw the grades of my VA02 and when i got back my chem assiagnment one, guess wat i saw... i scored 3 upon 10... failed, and was the lowest in the class.. damn.. and wat was my greatest mistake? i got the most impt avarage titre rounded off wrongly..
i love chem.. but y are all the worst cases happening on me today... hmmmmm... will try harder de..wont gif up...
oh, today phy pract also siaoz diao.. the practical so difficult to understand de.. den my readings all so wierd de.. some more got 2 anomalous results leh.. sianz sia... graph still so hard to plot coz of the wierd readings.. argh.. i like phy pract also de.. guess its jux i should nt do practical today...
tml got maths, oh man.... i also like maths de, but so difficult to do sia.. muz improve maths.. cannot slack in maths.. and phy work? i'll try nt to detest it so much...
Y8:43 PM
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
27/4/05
hahaz.. today is so relaxing man.. the two tough days of the week are over... monday and tuesday nv do much also... go for lectures as usual and went for pc on monday.. argh, turn out squash isn't tt easy at all.. still tot it will be easy to learn.. den ytd got the army thingy talk.. actually tot tt the 4 naughty guys in class will pon de, so i told elieen tt.. den they turn up.. surprisingly man.. ok la, but after awhile they disappear from the hall, as expected.. oh watever... they jux dun get caught or get into trouble can le, den the class also wont get punishment..
ermz, for homework, i got do lo.. den luckily last week do le, den tis week dun need do homework at home.. can slack abit.. today even slack one hr wif wei hun and yixin at a classroom man.. so funny sia, jux kept laughing..
hmmm.. tis fri got interact, cant wait.. den got the meeting wif zhengway they all.. sat even better, morning got idp till 12.. den 2 pm got er mei outing!!! yeah!!! except mabel cant come along.. coz she got counciler camp at pjc.. hmmm... but itz ok, at least can see clara!!!yup.. sun gonna go attend ms siti's wedding.. hahaz.. but still cant decide wat to wear there.. tml will ask the galz.. gtg for dinner.. tata..
Y6:18 PM
Saturday, April 23, 2005
23/4/05
hmmm... tis week haf been a busy, tight and stressful work for me.. lacking of slp too.. need to rush hw, and in the end, i decided to quit odac and join interact club... yup, kinda relief after making tt decision... was actually stress coz of the camp, decided nt to go and here i am.. its saturday and i'm at home!!! resting and doing my work.. ytd i slept at 11 and woke up at 8 plus tis morning... so shiok sia, long time nv slp so much le.. slp 9 hrs plus, and now i haf headache.. hahaz.. thank goodness i nv slp in lectures..
chemisty i haf been doing and now am following up wif the pace.. maths is jux nice, at tutorial 7 but ms ho wan us to do booklet 1 jae de exercise.. so its ArgH~ coz haf to face AP, GP topic, but now i dun detest tt chpt so much le... will try finish the jae exercise by today bah.. cant slack anymore le.. but itz kinda true, no pressure, no progress.. but too much itz no good.. and tink i flunked the maths lecture formula quiz.. damn, i will do better de... den for phy, itz still the same old story.. i'm lagging behind in phy.. i dun wanaa fail phy!!!! wan at least get C for phy.. den if possible, A for chem, B fOr maths...
oh ya, for Pw, i got idea le, thinking of doing bout celery.. hope tt my PI will succeed... plz gif me some luck on tis.. juz wanna get it over and done wif... erm, gp content module de portfolio i finiish last weekend le, so, no worries for tt now..
hahaz... tink crying really is a great way to catharsis oneself.. i gotta agree... hahaz.. mr fei's lesson is funny, got to know new words and way of saying a word too.. hmmm... talk to ms siti and i learnt, no matter now long it takes to do smth, jux persevere thro and do it.. i dun wanna be lazy... but how? perhaps stress is the cure... who knows...
hahaz.. turns out my sis's senior in j1 is in my og de.. the words is kinda small here.. ppl are amazing.. oh ya, and ytd kaixin call me bout 4e6 end of ye chalet.. hahz.. hope i can make it.. tink i should be can de, coz its at end of dec...
i MIZ er mei ppl lotta!!! miz linghui- though same sch, rarely see her, MAbel, CLara and ShiYinG too... hahaz.. went K box wif weihun and yixin ytd... jason came along later.. den we sang for 5 hrs, damn shiok sia.. whole week really moral very down, ytd was actually breaking down and being catharsised.... feel so great!! =)
oOpS...mom's asking me to stop writting and go for luch le... signing Off...
Y12:12 PM
Sunday, April 17, 2005
17/4/05
arhg!!!! i dun wanna say tis, but i'm saying tis too often.. phy is difficult... i dun wanna lose to phy, but how am i gonna improve? i haf so little time and so much things to do... should i go for phy tution? the chpts are going to be so much more difficult as things goes on.. i love chem.. but i cant do phy.. y is tt so? and i am still panicking over pw's PI.. damn... wat am i going to do? heavens, i need help man, save me!
Y11:13 AM
Friday, April 15, 2005
15/4/05
ermz, found my calclator back le.. itz wif benjamin.. tt stick, tell me say dun haf my calculator den i buy le den tell me haf.. lolz.. feeling pretty bottled up inside... wanna scream.. got so many things i'm worried bout... worry tat i cant cope wif studies.. worry tt i cant finish hw on time.. worry bout project work... i really haf no idea wat to do... omg... and now i worry bout my cca.. worry tat my cca too busy, cant cope wif everything.. wat am i gonna do? should i stay in odac? wat should i do for pw? am i going to be able to cope wif maths and physic? did i do the right things? i shouldnt gif up rite?
Y8:42 PM
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
12/4/05
ARGH!!!! i lost my calaulator today... so sad.. the calculator wif me for so long le, and itz nt spoilt, and now i lost it... damn!!! after maths lesson i left it on the table den nv take.. i didnt notice till i saw it gone from my bag.. damn it man.. wat a thing to happen.. argh ~~
everything went normal today.. same, loads of work, plus now got project work.. ytd went for pe.. training to play squash is so tiring.. den still need control ball also.. den today is pc.. take height and weight onli.. den eng content module is youth and aged.. so far so good.. jux maths , chem, phy got lots of hw.. haiz.. hope tml will be a better day.. oh ya, tml tink got idp..
Y6:01 PM
Sunday, April 10, 2005
10/4/05
well well... blogging again tis week.. busy week.. though i didnt go for the sentosa nor the east coast trip... i still haven manage to complete all my hw.. damn it.. itz so depressing when ur hw stacks up like a mountain as each day progresses.. the feeling is bad if u haven complete ur work.. but the sense of sastifaction is there if u can complete it all without a flinch...
jux got back from tomb sweeping tis morning and movie wif my sis in the afternoon.. jux got a bath and it feels great 'wif the damn cold water on u'.. itz so cooling when i step out of the bathroom.. and i jux rejected a job offer for tis coming sat, 16.4.05 coz i most probably will be catching the movie: a-lot-like-love wif my er mei sect.. miz mabel, clara, shi ying.. love all of them.. hope i can find true friendship there..
(abit disappointment and anger here...)
i still haven quite found it yet in some places.. abit disappointed wif some old friends of mine.. yup.. dun call me bang seh, if u all are one to me.. shut ur bloody mouth and i'll nv call u again.. i'm gonna enjoy my next 2 yrs w/o u all and go for my A' z.. so itz BYE to ya shitty ppl..
Y4:50 PM
Thursday, April 07, 2005
7/4/05
Itz been awhile since I last blog, oh well.. whatever... first week of lessons haf started and so far itz been good.. I haf been doing tutorials and going for lectures, dun dare to pon, if nt the active participation marks will be zero.. I also now haf more interest and understanding towards physic, maths and chem le.. the class gals quite fun.. we chose the same pe- squash time slot at 4.30pm on Monday and pc at 4.30pm on tue.. I actually prefer tennis de.. but that time slot dun haf.. the onli time slot there is is on wed.. I cant go on wed coz having idp course- impactful business communication.. yup.. got a lot of things to do... academic studies, pe, pc, idp course and cca- odac, I 've decided... even though now sick but happy for being in jjc.. I 'm thankful for being allowed to be in jjc..
Though the class galz now quite fun.. I still mises er mei members..!!! prefer last time 05s17 also.. miz those memories and time we 've had in 05s17.. miz clara 's sweetness and wackness, shiying 's micheviousness, linghi 's blurness and mabel 's sleepliness.. though in jjc I rarely see linghui, jasper.. etc, pl who are in S17 during pae but different classes now.. me, yi xin and wei hun same class so can see each other till rot lo.. wahahaz..
Also cannot forget ppl from og 26 and 4e6.. all the best to u guys wherever u are, whatever u do.. cheers!!
Y5:34 PM
Saturday, April 02, 2005
2/4/05
I haf jux returned from camp.. hahaz.. my ogl job is ending le.. the camp which lastd from 31/3/05 to 2/4/05 has ended at one something.. my og has become more bonded since the fires day I met them, and they are more friendly to me too.. I’m so happy..
First day of camp when I saw my og, I felt weird coz I’m nt close to them. I dun even know their name. my moral was abit low due to their cold response and scolding from mr liao.. Den being an ogl also need to sacrifice some personal time and I thought of quitting.. now I change my mind..
During crazy search and search for count Dracula, I jux do nth lo.. follow campers, nt very enthu yet.. coz campers all sianz sianz de.. jux keep asking them to cheer.. yup.. they did cheer, but nt tat enthu yet, need ogl to lead them de.. but till secnd day the telematch and ww3, their spirit was high and they cheer by themselves without ogl leading them.. so proud of them.. when I hear them cheer, suddenly they so very enthu, I was really impressed, like my og so much.. keep on cheering den touching man.. after jj night got FIT debrief ma.. den got to know a story bout fish, fish tank and fish food.. moral of story is : when u decided on doing something, put in ur 100%.yup. if nt u will keep thinking the things u do is wrong... yup, kinda sad... my ogl life ending le.. so touching when the og 5 ppl gif me and the ogls 3 cheers.. so touched..
Tink sometimes stuffs like these moment are like fairytale story, very sweet but SHORT.. though I still cant remember all the names.. I still love them.. haiz, foong yee also leaving le.. will miz her de.. also miz 4e6, miz julye and the 7 sistaz and er mei also.. oh ya.. I call joel mummy.. muhahahaz.. and i'm the second gal to call him tt.. he sianz diao liaoz..
Y4:38 PM
