Wednesday, October 12, 2005
hmmm. i dunno wat's gonna happen.
i am on a conditional promotion.
gotta retake at least one paper, get a D
promote and mug like shit for A's.
at tis moment, my mind in a mess.
unfortunately, heart too.
i juz read finish safe harbour, danielle steel's book.
suddenly realised many things.
i borrowed books to escape.
to hide away my fears tt i might nt be able to promote
i'm scared
but i dun wan ppl to see it
i put on a nonchalant face
tt i'll juz go for retest
and i avoided teacher's eyes
wan to avoid the failure i haf
reading allows me to keep to myself
to talk less bout grades to my friends
and to avoid the look of pity in their eyes
i juz wan everything to go back to normal
got so much unsettled things
and i realised
i'm nt helping myself
i am nt facing the fact tt i did badly
the karma of laziness hit me
den i decided to see the results
i dun wan to escape anymore
its too tiring and fake
Y7:07 PM
